I don't update nearly enough. I know it's a crime of the evils.
But here's a summary of my life up to now.


These tears just keep falling
I swear I'm okay
but my future just gets clearer day after day
I can't write a song
and I can't play guitar
my hopes and dreams seem to be getting too far
I wish I could dance
I wish I could sing
But everytime I try, I just get nothing
I'm useless at life
it begs me to stop trying
bottling inside me until I can't keep lying
How do I break this spell
that keeps me from sleep?
How do I wake up my heart thats digging too deep
oh please just help me once
in my fatal attempts at normality
because nothing could hurt you worse than
the razorsharp edge of reality
but what is reality, you ask?
I do not know what this word means
because reality is not where I live
I live in another place, a place in my mind
where the only things that matter are the deaf and the blind
A blind person hears whereas a deaf person sees
but what no one every wonders is if they can cry
because they've lost a great part of them
without eyes, I could not see the beauty in the world through a camera lense
without ears, I could not hear the music that changes the atmosphere and makes it feel like heaven


I wish I could stop crying and believe that I'm not a waste of space. But all I do is preach to thee. I cannot advance. I cannot pass go. I can only depend on chance. Heads, you live. Tails, you die.